I’m sorry you’re dealing with this. In Jain Dharma, harming any living being is against ahimsa, and violence or coercion toward a renunciant is a grave violation of right conduct. A satvi is not at fault for someone else’s violence, and the path of Jain teachings supports both your safety and your spiritual integrity.

Practical steps for immediate safety and care

• Ensure your safety: move to a secure, safe place with trusted people, such as a fellow satvi, monk, or a trusted layperson.
• Seek medical care and reporting: get medical attention to address physical injuries, and for any possible infections or pregnancy check. If you can, preserve evidence and avoid showering or changing clothes before medical examination if that won’t compromise your safety.
• Report the incident: consider notifying the appropriate authorities or a trusted sangh leader so the matter can be addressed through proper channels. This protects you and helps prevent further harm to others.
• Seek support: contact a trusted confidant within the sangh, a counselor, or a support person you trust. You don’t have to face this alone.
• Preserve dignity and privacy: share only with those you trust, and keep control over how and when you disclose details.

Spiritual frame from Jain teachings

• Violence and wrongdoing by another does not justify self-blame. The fault lies with the aggressor, not the survivor.
• Your renunciant vows (brahmacharya and ahimsa) remain foundational. Maintaining inner resolve to live truthfully and nonviolently is aligned with dharma, but you are not required to endure harm without seeking safety or justice.
• Right conduct includes truth-telling (satya) and nonviolence (ahimsa). Speaking the truth about the act helps protect others and uphold justice, while seeking healing and safety aligns with compassion (karuna) and equanimity.
• Aftercare and healing: practices of forgiveness (kshama) and compassion can be part of the long path, but they don’t mean you must suppress your trauma or skip necessary steps for safety, justice, and healing. Take the time you need to recover emotionally and spiritually.
• For a satvi, maintaining purity of intention and adherence to vow-based discipline remains important, but Jain teaching also emphasizes safeguarding life and dignity. If you wish, a teacher or senior sangh member can guide you on how to align ongoing practice with your healing process.

If you want, I can point you to specific JainKnowledge.com pages that discuss related topics (ahimsa, satya, and compassionate response to harm) in a way that’s framed for Jain renunciants. I can’t share general web links here, but I can guide you to relevant sections on JainKnowledge.com if you’d like.