In Jain dharma, what you are describing is not strange or wrong; it is a very precious type of bhav (inner tendency).

I’ll break it into parts:

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1. What does it mean to feel “I want to become a Tirthankar”?

In Jain philosophy, every soul is _anant-shaktiyukt_ – it has infinite potential. A Tirthankar is also a soul like us, but with extremely pure, rare karmas (especially Tirthankar-nam-karma) and very high level of compassion, detachment, and spiritual effort carried across many lives.

So, when a person naturally feels:

• “I want to help all beings cross samsar.”
• “I don’t want moksh only for myself; I want others to reach there too.”
• “I feel responsible for the spiritual upliftment of all jivas.”

then, in Jain terms, this is a uttam bhav – a very elevated spiritual inclination.

It does not automatically prove that one has Tirthankar-nam-karma, because that is a very specific karmic cause fixed from previous lives. But such feelings are fully in line with the compassion and universal concern seen in Tirthankars.

So in simple words:

> Your inner feeling is spiritually auspicious, very Jain, and very valuable.

You can read a simple explanation of “Who is a Tirthankar?” here

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2. Why do you worry about “all” – poor people, animals, even leaves?

From the Jain drishti:

1. Seeing jiva everywhere

To worry about animals, poor people, even leaves, shows that you _sense life_ and _suffering_ widely. This is very close to ahimsa-darshan – the vision that every living being wants happiness and freedom from pain.

1. Karuna (compassion) becoming very broad

Normally, people feel compassion only for their family or close circle. You are feeling it for:

- Poor humans - Animals - Even plant beings (leaves)

This widening circle of compassion is a sign that your soul’s sensitivity is opening up, not just your emotions.

1. Concern for their moksh, not just their comfort

You said you think: _“When will they all attain moksh?”_ This is very deep. Many people worry only about others’ temporary problems; you are worrying about their ultimate freedom. That is very close to the Tirthankar’s perspective, who sees:

- Endless cycle of birth-death of all jivas - Their ignorance and bondage - And shows them the permanent solution (moksh-marg)

So, in Jain language: your dayā (compassion) is mixed with tattva-jnan (understanding of spiritual truth) at some level. This combination is extremely auspicious.

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3. “I want to help them all, and only then go to moksh”

This feeling is also very meaningful.

(a) Natural Tirthankar-like ideal

A Tirthankar:

• First purifies his own soul to the highest level.
• Then, through Keval-jnan and Samavasaran, becomes a universal teacher.
• After finishing the work of establishing the tirth (Sangh), then ultimately goes to Siddha-shila.

Your feeling:

> “First I want everyone to reach, then I will go.”

is in that direction of thinking, though in technical scriptural terms:

• No one can actually “delay” moksh once all ghati-karmas are destroyed.
• Each soul’s liberation happens individually according to its own karmas and efforts.

But as bhav, as an ideal in the heart, this is very noble:

• It keeps you away from selfish spirituality.
• It makes your dharma not only about “my peace, my liberation” but about the welfare of all jivas.

(b) Important clarification (Jain view)

In Jainism:

• You cannot literally take others to moksh by your wish.
• You can:

- Purify yourself - Teach - Inspire - Create right conditions (ahimsa, knowledge, Sangh, etc.)

But each soul must walk the path itself. Even Tirthankars do not “drag” anybody to moksh; they only show the perfect path.

So the correct, pure version of your feeling is:

> “Let me purify myself so much that, like a Tirthankar, my life, my speech, my conduct become a cause for countless souls to move toward liberation.”

That is fully aligned with Jain dharma.

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4. “No one told me to think like this, this feeling came from within”

In Jain thought, such an inner pull is often explained as:

• Samskar from past lives – impressions of previous spiritual efforts.
• Punya with right direction – punya guided by some right vision, not just for worldly enjoyment.
• Early stirrings of samyak-darshan–type tendencies – even if full right faith has not yet arisen, the _bhav_ is moving in that direction.

When a young or ordinary-looking person suddenly has:

• attraction to Tirthankars
• respect for ahimsa
• concern for all beings
• love for moksh, not only for heaven or success

Jain acharyas would say: “This soul has carried good bhav and samyaktva-related causes from before.”

It does not mean egoistically thinking “I am a future Tirthankar.” It simply means: there is spiritual depth already present, and it should be nurtured carefully.

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5. What should you do with this feeling?

The most important part is how you channel this bhav.

1) Strengthen understanding (Jnān)

• Study basic Jain tattva: jiva, ajiva, bandha, samvar, nirjara, moksh.
• Learn clearly:

- What a Tirthankar is. - How they reached that state (many lives of sadhana, vows, penance, compassion, detachment).

• This will protect you from:

- Fantasy - Ego (“I am special”) - Confusion with non-Jain ideas of “saviour” or “creator-god”.

You can start with a simple explanation of who a Tirthankar is:

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2) Turn compassion into _practical_ ahimsa

If you truly worry about all beings:

• Be very careful of:

- Food (avoid himsa where you can, move toward stricter vegetarianism, maybe Jain diet as possible). - Speech (no harsh words, no lies that hurt others). - Daily habits (waste, carelessness, harming tiny jivas unnecessarily).

Real Tirthankar-like bhav will show in daily actions.

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3) Practice inner purification

A Tirthankar is vitarag – free from anger, pride, deceit, greed. So you can gently start:

• Observing your own:

- Anger - Ego - Attachment - Jealousy

• Doing:

- Samayik (where possible) - Pratikraman (even simple, with honest reflection) - Navkar-mantra with real feeling, not just lips.

When your inner world becomes calmer and purer, your _concern_ for others becomes stronger and wiser, not just emotional.

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4) Avoid two dangers

1. Ego about being “special”

“I feel like a Tirthankar, I must be great” – this immediately goes against Tirthankar-bhav. Real greatness in Jain dharma is absolute humility.

1. Overwhelm and sadness

Seeing so much suffering, you might feel: - “The world is too big.” - “How will they all be free?” Remember: - This universe has infinite souls. - Tirthankars have already shown the path again and again. - Your role is: do your purest best from where you are. - Even making a few souls move one step towards right faith or non-violence is extremely big punya and progress.

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6. Does this mean you “are” or “will be” a Tirthankar?

Scripturally, we cannot say that.

• Tirthankar-nam-karma is a fixed, extremely rare karmic fruition.
• Only Kevali Bhagwans truly “see” that.

But we can say with confidence:

• Your inner tendency is pointing in a very high direction.
• It matches the values of Tirthankars: compassion for all, concern for moksh, selfless outlook.
• If you nurture it with:

- Right knowledge - Right conduct - Humility - Steady effort

then, whether or not you become a Tirthankar, your atma will certainly rise higher and higher on the path they showed.

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7. In one line, what does this all mean?

In Jain terms, it means:

> Your soul is carrying a very auspicious, compassion-filled, Tirthankar-oriented bhav from within. It should be respected, purified, and guided by true Jain teachings, so that it becomes a cause for your own upliftment and for many others’ progress toward moksh.