You have done three very important things already:

1. You were aware it was wrong.

You knew there were living beings (bats) in the room and you chose your own safety in a way that risked their life. In Jainism this is counted as sānkalpi / sāchitta hiṁsā (intentional or knowingly done himsā), because: - You knew they were there - You arranged the situation such that if they came out, they would be killed Even if your main aim was self‑protection (not hatred), karmic bondage still happens, only the intensity depends on your inner feelings (bhāv).

1. You confessed it honestly to your Guru and accepted prāyaścitta.

This is exactly what Jain dharma teaches: - Ālocanā – open confession of the fault - Pratikraman – repentance and reflection - Pratyākhyān – resolve not to repeat Your Guru giving you 2 pacholas as prāyaścitta means: - The fault is taken seriously but - It is also considered rectifiable through sincere repentance and future care.

Since you have already done one pachola and are doing the second, you are walking on the right path of cleansing that karma.

1. You are still thinking about it even after years.

This shows sensitivity of conscience, not stubbornness. In Jain view, such real regret (ātmā‑klet, sacha pashchātāp) actually: - Weakens the already‑bound karma - Helps prevent similar acts in future

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How to see this incident now (Jain view)

• Yes, papa (sin) was there, because:

- Jānān̄ti‑kāraṇ (knowingly done) - Saṅkalpa (a plan that allowed killing to happen)

• But you have taken the Jain way to respond:

- You didn’t hide it - You didn’t justify it - You accepted Guru‑given prāyaścitta

From now on, the important part is:

1. Complete the remaining prāyaścitta properly.

Do the second pachola with: - Humility - Clear remembrance of the incident - Strong resolve: “I will never choose my comfort/safety in a way that causes avoidable death to other beings.”

1. Add gentle, daily inner practices:

- In Pratikraman / Samayik, remember this incident once, bow inwardly, and say in your own simple words: “Whatever harm I caused to those bats, knowingly or unknowingly, I truly repent. May such himsā never come from me again.” - Practice Maitri‑bhāvanā: “May all beings, including those bats, be free from fear and suffering.”

1. Be extra careful with living beings in future.

- If you see animals/insects in your space, first think: “How can I protect both them and myself with least himsā?” - Use methods like: - Gently guiding them out - Keeping windows/vents arranged so they don’t enter - Avoiding solutions that deliberately risk killing if a non‑violent option is practically available

In Jainism, for gṛhasth (householders), self‑protection is allowed within limits and with minimum possible harm. But once we see that we chose a harsher way when softer options were possible, we accept, repent, and correct. You have already stepped onto that corrective path.

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Essence for you

• The incident did involve himsā and papa.
• You have already taken the correct Jain response: confession, prāyaścitta, and ongoing regret.
• Do not remain stuck in guilt; instead:

- Complete the second pachola sincerely - Strengthen your ahimsa‑bhāva in daily life - Use this memory as a lifelong reminder to protect even small beings whenever possible

That is how a Jain turns a past fault into spiritual progress.