In Jain dharma, this feeling is usually called “vairāgya” or “saṃvega”.

• Saṃvega = a deep inner shock on seeing the reality of saṃsār (endless cycle of birth and death).
• Vairāgya = a natural turning away from worldly race – money, status, routine life – because you see it as temporary and finally empty.

You saw:

• A person you used to see regularly is suddenly gone.
• How the “standard life script” (study–job–family–money–death) feels mechanical and purposeless.
• That nothing material goes with you to the next birth.

This is exactly what Jain scriptures want us to realize through aniccatā-bhāvanā / anitya-bhāvanā (reflection on impermanence).

So:

1. Your feeling is not wrong or abnormal.

It is a sign of spiritual awakening, an inner call to look beyond routine life.

1. Don’t let it become depression.

Jain view is not “life is useless,” but: “Worldly running without dharma is useless. Human birth is precious – use it for inner purification.”

1. How to use this feeling in a Jain way:

- Spend a few minutes daily thinking: “One day I too will die. What am I doing for my soul today?” - Do swādhyāy (study) of Jain teachings, listen to pravachans. - Strengthen dharma: small steps in ahimsa, satya, brahmacharya, aparigraha. - Develop equanimity (samatā) – slowly loosening attachment and hatred.

In short, what you are feeling is saṃvega leading towards vairāgya – a clear seeing that saṃsār is temporary and cannot give real, lasting peace, and a gentle push toward a more spiritual, soul-focused life.