You are right that this hurts. From Jain drishti, understanding “it is karma” does not immediately remove the emotional pain. Both can be true:

• Gyan: “This was not meant to work out right now.”
• Bhav: “I still feel sad and disappointed.”

I’ll keep it simple and practical, in Jain terms.

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1. What happened – from Jain viewpoint

In Jainism, any result comes from:

1. Karma (dravya-hetu) – your own past causes.
2. Nimitta (external condition) – here, bad public transport / distance.

So:

• The opportunity itself was punya-nimitta.
• The obstacle (transport) was also a different karma giving result.

When both sides mutually agreed not to go ahead, that, too, became a closure under the current karmic setup. It is not “punishment”; it is just a phase of karma-fruiting (udaya) – not a judgment on your worth or ability.

A useful bhāvanā here: > “Jo hua, mere kalyāṇ ke liye hi hua, chahe mujhe abhi samajh na aaye.”

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2. Your pain is not “wrong”

You are doing:

• Jāp
• Breathing
• Pratikraman

Yet the mind still hurts. That does not mean your sādhanā is failing.

Jain view:

• When old karmas of asakti, ichchhā, chintā are maturing,

even good practices will first bring those feelings to the surface.

• This “restlessness” can be a sign that the karmas around expectations and fear of loss are getting stirred.

So, do not add a second layer of guilt: “Why am I still sad if I am doing jāp and pratikraman?” Sadness is just another passing bhāva, not your true swarūp.

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3. How to handle the hurt – step by step

(a) Allow yourself to grieve — but within maryādā

For 10–15 minutes a day, consciously allow:

• “Yes, I am disappointed.”
• “It felt like all boxes were ticked, and I’m hurting.”

You can even say to yourself: > “Āj ka dukh bhi ek udayī karm hai. Main ise dekhta/ dekhti hoon, par main isme doobunga/ doobungi nahi.”

After that time, gently stop the mental replay and switch to some other constructive activity (reading, walk, seva, skill-building).

(b) Shift focus from “lost opportunity” to “open future”

Use this bhāvanā:

• “If this was truly best for my soul’s long-term kalyāṇ, no one could have stopped it.”
• “Jo karma abhi ruka, uske pīchhe bhi koi uchit kāraṇ hai. Anyay nahi, niyam hai.”

Keep your effort (purushārtha) strong:

• Update skills, search other roles, keep yourself ready.
• Take this as training of inner strength before a better-aligned opening.

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4. Deepen how you do your Jain practices (not just “more”, but “better”)

(1) Jāp / Navkār Mantra

Instead of only asking, “Give me this job / opportunity,” try:

• “Mujhe samatā, dhairya, aur sahi drishti do.”
• While chanting, feel: “I am a soul, different from this situation, different from success or failure.”

Even 5–10 minutes of quality jāp with this bhāv is more powerful than 1 hour of distracted repetition.

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(2) Pratikraman – specific, not vague

In your pratikraman, you can do alochanā like:

• “Hey Arihant Paramātmā,

is job ke sambandh mein jo asakti, atirikt chintā, ya anyāyon ka bhāv mere andar aya, uske liye main kshamā māngtā/ māngti hoon.”

• “Jo bhi anantkal ka bandhan is dukh ke roop mein abhi phal raha hai,

main ise samatā se sveekār karne ki shakti māngtā/ māngti hoon.”

Then pratyākhyān:

• “Āgale avasthā meṅ, main kisi bhi job / sthiti se

apnītā aur anapnītā ko itnā gāḍh na jodūṅ ki mera antarik shānti chhin jaye.”

This way, the same situation becomes a step for karm-kshey (shedding), not new bandh (bondage).

You can read a simple explanation of pratikraman here:

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(3) Breathing + Jain bhāvanā

When you do breathing exercises, add a Jain touch:

1. Inhale:

- Think: “Main śuddh ātmā hoon, anant śānti ka swāmī/swamini.”

1. Exhale:

- Think: “Moh, chintā, nirāshā – yeh sab anādi karm ke phal hain, main inme se alag hoon.”

Do this for 5 minutes whenever the pain spikes.

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5. Important inner correction: stop blaming yourself

You wrote: “I’m aware it’s my karma only.” That is true – but be careful:

• Right view: “This is my karmic result; let me respond with samatā and right effort.”
• Wrong view: “It’s my karma, so I am at fault or less than others.”

Jain dharma never says “You are bad.” It says:

• Soul = eternally pure.
• Karma = temporary dust.

Right now, some karmas blocked this one path. They cannot block:

• Your inner growth,
• Your future opportunities,
• Your capacity to purify yourself from today onward.

If you want a deeper understanding of karma in Jainism, see:

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6. A small daily routine you can follow

Very simple, doable:

1. Morning (5–10 min)

- Navkār jāp with bhāvanā of samatā. - Short sankalp: “Aaj main niraashā ko dekhūngā/dekhūngī, par usme doobūngā/doobūngī nahi.”

1. During the day

- Whenever mind goes to “lost job”, do 5 deep breaths with the ātmā-bhāvanā above. - Then consciously shift attention to one constructive action (skill, job search, seva, helping at home).

1. Night

- Short pratikraman (even in simple words) focusing on: - Any extra anger, jealousy, overthinking about this topic. - Alochanā + kshamāpanā + small pratyākhyān: “Kal main thodā aur samatā se react karūngā/karūngī.”

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From Jain drishti, remember:

• No real kalyāṇic opportunity for your soul is ever truly lost.
• This was one staircase that broke; the building of your future still stands.
• With right faith, right knowledge, and right conduct in small daily steps, more suitable and less stressful paths will open in due time.

May Arihant Paramātmā give you inner shakti, samatā, and clarity to pass through this phase with as little new karma-bandh as possible and with maximum inner growth.