I masterbated during party Shan and I am feeling very guilty I said michami fundamental
Answer
Feeling guilty shows that your inner conscience is awake. In Jain Dharma, when we make a mistake, the right path is not to hate ourselves, but to do sincere repentance, learn from it, and strengthen self-control.
If you said “Micchami Dukkadam” sincerely, that is a good beginning. But the deeper Jain practice is:
- Accept the mistake honestly.
- Feel genuine regret without self-hatred.
- Resolve not to repeat it.
- Practice more awareness and restraint in the future.
Explanation
In Jain Dharma, sexual indulgence increases attachment, passion, and restlessness of the mind. For householders, complete celibacy is not always required, but restraint and purity of conduct are very important.
If this happened during a sacred period like Paryushan, your guilt may feel stronger because Paryushan is a time of purification, forgiveness, pratikraman, and self-discipline.
You can do a simple inner repentance:
- Bow mentally to Arihant Bhagwan, Siddha Bhagwan, Acharya, Upadhyay, and Sadhus.
- Say “Micchami Dukkadam” with sincerity.
- Ask forgiveness for the weakness of mind and senses.
- Take a small realistic vow, such as avoiding triggers, staying mindful, or practicing restraint for a set time.
Spiritual Understanding
Jain Dharma teaches that true repentance is not fear-based. It is a cleansing of the soul through humility, awareness, and resolve.
Do not think, “I am bad.” Instead think, “This was a mistake caused by passion; I will become more aware and stronger.”
If you follow your repentance with better conduct, that becomes real spiritual progress.
Takeaway
Do not remain trapped in guilt. Do sincere pratikraman, say “Micchami Dukkadam” with a pure heart, and make a firm but peaceful resolve to practice more self-control.