Answer

It’s okay to feel regret, but please don’t hate yourself or panic. In Jain Dharma, Paryushan is a sacred time for awareness, self-control, repentance, and becoming better. If you made a mistake, the right response is Pratikraman, sincere repentance, and a firm intention to improve.

Explanation

In Jain ethics, sexual thoughts and actions are connected with kashāya and attachment, so during Paryushan one tries to be extra careful with the mind, speech, and body. But Jain Dharma also teaches that mistakes should be handled with honesty and correction, not with despair.

You can do this:

• Calm your mind first.
• Do sincere Michchhāmi Dukkaḍaṃ in your heart.
• If you know Pratikraman, do it with attention.
• Ask forgiveness from Arihant, Siddha, Guru, and your own soul for the mistake.
• Make a small vow: “I will avoid such content and control myself better.”

Since you are 14, your body and mind are going through changes. Having urges can happen, but watching inappropriate content and losing control can disturb your mind and spiritual focus. Try to avoid triggers, especially during Paryushan.

Spiritual Understanding

Jain Dharma is not about staying stuck in guilt. It is about:

• Recognizing the mistake
• Feeling true repentance
• Stopping the cause
• Making effort for self-control

A mistake becomes spiritually harmful when we justify it and repeat it carelessly. But when we repent sincerely and improve, it becomes a step toward awareness.

Takeaway

Do Pratikraman sincerely, say Michchhāmi Dukkaḍaṃ, avoid inappropriate videos, and start again with a clean intention. Paryushan is exactly the time to purify yourself and become stronger.